The LAST Post

I just don't want to say anything today but admit , admit my failure, admit the mistake I did and spoiled someone's life.
I am thinking myself to be a completely worthless piece of shit that tried to made waves flow in opposite direction and forgot that there are some rules and traditions which you cannot change in your life..Well I am just another common guy-- mango people.
Its complicated a lot and I just want to repent the things now in my life. I understand that not every fairy tale comes true in life and life teaches you a lot, but still would like not to involve myself in any of these so called earthly matters from now on.

I understand that as my worthy readers you would have always cursed me about the things I posted in this blog. I know I just posted them to let someone know, make things flow again in right direction, but the fact is that the more I tried to avoid this, more closely I was attracted to it.

I admit my mistake and will repent it from now on..I Realized that:

• I am still full of mistakes
• I am still immature
• Irresponsible
• Untrustworthy
• In Short, I am a complete failure and can't forgive myself for what I did. Don't know what to do and how to do, which way to go, but will do what my MIND says from now on, this heart always says false things.

Thanks once again all for reading my blog and I appreciate that for your kind love. As of now good bye. Asta la Vista..!!

PERFECT TWO

LOVE vs ARRANGED MARRIAGE--My Questions

• Is it a marriage b/w two people or marriage between families or kundlis?
• We goto mandir, masjid, church, gurudwara..Believe in other Gods..Then why they follow their own religion in arranged marriage?
• Is Love an important aspect before marriage or after marriage. What will you say..Do you have the right to love someone before marriage knowing the fact that you cannot go long?
• Where do feel someone will be more happy, get more freedom--In Arranged marriage or Love marriage?
• Is it always like your wishes are nothing in front of your parents?
• Marriage is done between two people not between parents so whom do you think has the right to take decision?
• Which part do you think covers more expectations--Arranged or Love?
• Doing sacrifices really means that it is a True Love?
• Is breeding livestock is the sole purpose of any marriage?
• Why social discrimination is still prevalent in India when it comes to Arranged or Love Marriage?
• Should you develop the sense of belonging, respect and trust for your partner before or after marriage?
• If love marriage don't work, you can easily blame urself or ur partner..But what if your arranged marriage doesnot work..Will you complain this to your parents or will just compromise it and live life as hell in a cage just thinking it was or is my destiny?
• Is it like arranged marriages have more success rate, we should go with this trend like people run after Iphone these days?
• Is it perfectly fine with meeting someone whom parents choose when you have not choose anyone by yourself. But if you choose someone by yourself, you should discuss with your parents before giving up. I can understand, sometimes, not every parents will agree to it but we all know that no parents wish to spoil their own children's lives?
• Is everything done for just the sake of society or parents nose?
• Can love happen twice?
• I have just question for those people who says arrange marriage are good because their parents are there even in ny fight & love marriage is unsuccessful because both partner has to face more worst situations and having no support from anyone.--
  
  There are many arrange marriages where both partner has to face worst situation & even they get their parents support too.But for what..finally that support is given to satisfy each ego & which result into rate of divorce...And if people says that arrange marriage are more successful then this is also the fact that in INDIA the rates of divorce are getting increased too..Is this only the support that every body get in arrange marriage?Then somebody can still decrease rate of divorces???????
• Another point that someone mention that love marriages are unsuccessful because men's nature always get change after marriage.That's true.But is it not possible that after 3-4 yrs of success of arrange marriage even those men can also change any point of the time & make a life more worst like a hell?
• Is it you or ur society or ego of your parents?
• Are marriages all about Lust, Physical attraction or beauty of the other person?
• If the girl/boy is good coming from good family background irrespective of his/her caste can people then accept each other. Can we fight against unfaithfulness in love relationships?
   

Na Jaane Kyun Hota Hai Ye Zindagi Ke Saath – Choti Si Baat

Separation-The new BUZZ in the City

Well let me be clear at the first hand that even I don't have the answer to this post, but still I wanted to write this. People say if you are connected by heart, then this separation seems to be a second.

Airports can be so exciting, yet so sad..We part and meet them at these airports. Its not like some movie that you would jump inside running and propose your girl that yes I always wanted to say it. May be you can delay your schedule sometimes your flight(personal experience) to stay some more time or try to stop this so called time..just to let other person say..PLEASE DON'T GO....sometimes you want to really stop this time to hold her hand in yours, hug her but still time will never stay intact. It has to pass by but it leaves you with some wonderful everlasting memories which encrypts on your heart, you may delete them from your mind, but cannot delete them from your heart.

CCD at Bangalore Airport

Chairs outside the CCD at Bangalore Airport..I guess these were my some special memories

Separation is like bunch of Roses. You send them to express that you are still close to her heart but you know those are like never ending oceans till the time they reach her they would get withered. It seems impractical at the first hand living distant apart from each other. I can still remember my conversation on fb with a Hungarian friend. She told me how difficult it was for her to live separated without her boyfriend who was away to some other place for 2 years. I can still remember her words when she said that TRUE LOVE MAKES YOU DO ANYTHING..IT HAS HIS OWN FEELINGS, OWN PASSION, OWN COMPASSION..THE KISS YOU SHARE MEETING AFTER 2 YEARS MAKES YOU FORGET EVERYTHING..I still remember she was so excited last time cos it was time when her boyfriend was coming to see her.Well God bless them and their patience they both had for each other.

I would say that Separation is a pleasure rather than a pain. I acknowledge its toooooo difficult for someone to have such self control to bear it but the moment you realize that pain and agony are gone, you find yourself in the heaven, a heaven where you both are close to each other. May be my heart says these things but I've decided that these terminology applies to common mango people and if I am also a victim of this separation then I would love to see myself with her in that heaven rather than complete my mundane duties like other people do on this so called Earth.

Technically and literally you would have understood by this time that I don't even have a slightest idea of what the word separation means but really I wanted to put my car in 4th gear and keep it moving.

Some Songs on My Mind

My Favorite from college and which seems to make sense now!!

Is it True that everything is Fair in Love and War?

I always heard from my childhood that everything was fair in love and war..Saw so many movies..my brother(nikhil) use to cheat in games n say this dialogue..read so many books which iterates this statement, then who I am I to revoke it..Well, at this stage of my life I kindda disagree with it now.NO, everything is not fair in Love, may be in War..There is a word called SACRIFICE, which people tend to do these days, knowingly or unknowingly..for better of themselves or their partner, may be due to some boundations, may be due to some fear, may be due to confusion, may be due to the age old trends which are still dominant and prevalent in India.
My Question is if we are accepting one idea then we should propagate it fully.lets take an example, We Indians are now working in MNC's, we speak Hinglish, watch Hollywood movies, speak in different accents..In short we are following Western Culture..Now you will ask me that agar un ki koi achi cheej hai to humein kya dikkat ho sakti hai use apnane me..well, unki aur bhi achi cheejein hain, jo humein bohat pehle apna leni chayiye thi..(I wrote that we follow western culture, adopt their trends but are specific n choosy in adopting them or tailoring them to satisfy our own needs).

LOVE and WAR..these are the two opposite things so how someone can balance them on same weight. Think Deep..India and Pakistan fight, go into War..But if there is love then there is no War.

Why do you say in Love that "I LOVE YOU"?

I don't believe in fair and unfair things and believe that you should fight for your love but only if its true love and you realize it one day. Fighting not in d sense like in India, go convince parents, or may be court marriage, but its a test or your wait or your patience, that If you loved someone s/he will definitely realize it one day and definitely come back in your life again.


Huh..yet again some bullshit philosophy..but I find this place to be my own land where I am the reader and I am the writer..Good luck Kapil!!...

That distance between 2 ends of Road...never ending Roads

Finally this confusion now seems to make some sense. I can see a distance between my dreams, my heart and me myself..The distance which I have already covered and the distance which push me, pull me and force me to go back at the starting point. My heart is teared up in thousand pieces and I am just standing at one end of road tryin to figure out how will I collect these pieces and join it again.

I am confused between the peak which I always wanted to reach or the land where I am sitting right now. Again want to cross this road despite of such huge barriers. I am just consoling my MIND (dont know abt the heart) that I should not cross these obstacles, not everybody has so much will to do these tasks. I am just tore between my MIND and my HEART. Don't know what to follow, which path to choose..Am I doing right or wrong..Is this okay or not..I don't want to put question mark here..But if I write from my heart, I know I will do it one day and will achieve the ultimate purpose of my life, just a matter of small time..

enoughhhhhhh...kapil..this is enuff..just keep quiet and shut up..

Dil mera Dil mera
Dil Gira kahin per dafatan
Jane Yeh Magar Yeh nayan
Teri Kahmosh zulfon ki gehraiyaan
Hai jahan dil meraa uljha hua hai wahin kho gaya
Tu magar hai bekhabar.....hai bekhabar

Do we know that we love each other!!

This is something which is on my mind and don't know what striked my mind that I started blogging at 3:45 in the morning.
We love each other when:

• We are best'est friends or say very close friends(know each n every secrets, even passwords)
• We look at relationships quiet seriously
• We fight more than we love
• We share stories, facebook comments, some cool pictures, endless chats and sweet memories
• We know just by hearing the sound that s/he is not fine..kuch to gadbad hai..
• We feel it as the ending dialogue of my Fav movie "A Walk to Remember" says "LOVE IS LIKE A WIND, YOU CANNOT SEE IT, BUT YOU CAN FEEL IT"
• We know we are not going to get together but still respect's the other person's decision and just pretend that we are normal human beings
• We see a good morning message on mobile saying, Hey wake up..you need to go somwhere today.
• We fight with each other, don't talk for a long time and still asks sorry from each other just to maintain this ship of relation
• We care for the other person
• OHHHHHHHHHH!!!! there are endless reasons and I guess I can cover atleast 3-4 pages here but will halt as I know no one has patience to read the looooong stories and when esp written by Kapil

But my point is or may be my personal li'll experience makes me think that when you are in love with some person, you get to know about them even more than they know about them and you catch those small tears in eyes of your partner knowingly or unknowingly hiding this secret with you that you never wanted to disclose it the first hand. OMG, I just wrote that all this philosophy and now I am boasting myself as some Guru, but the fact is I am still old stupid, Idiot and Immature Kapil who really don't know the meaning of love or takes some decision at the first glance, never thinking of the future or its end results..Nevertheless, I know and I truly understand now, atleast now at this stage of why people says...Ye ishq nahi asan bus itna samaz lijiye ..ek aag ka dariya hai aur doob k jana hai

Can Love brew over LONG DISTANCE

• 99.9% you see, you experience, you hear will plainly tell u a big NO
• Well, u never know, what's there in for you but I believe love can grow and become more better than when you are so close to each other
• I believe its an TEST and EXPERIENCE which not all experiences, may be they are not lucky enough for this.
• Relationships are among of the most complex aspects of our lives, particularly long-term relationship
• The question for the day is: What if your relationship is pretty good, like a 8 on a scale of 1 to 10? Should you stay, openly committing to that relationship for life? Or should you leave and look for something better, something that could become even better?
• We both say be happy always wherever you may be, but punish ourselves
• I understand the situations and circumstances makes you do all this, but if you fight against these and be confident about your partner and realize your true love with them..no matter what..no one can stop you from being one together..

As I am writing this, one song is striking my mind..Listen if you wish..A song from movie "Har Dil   jo Pyaar Karega